This month has been such a headache that I finally had a mini freak out and cried, all that had to trigger it was possibly losing a roll of film that I had been shooting.
I have problems dealing with scheduling next quarter, financial stuff, figuring out how to graduate on time so I don’t have to drop out, and searching for a new place is overfilling my plate. I’ve had to deal with a lot more before but somehow this time I just couldn’t handle anymore.
I had finished shooting my roll of film and was rewinding it back up and it decided not to work. At first I was fine and trying to figure it out and then when I couldn’t and nothing was working the water works started. I was freaking out and calling my family, trying to get help and feeling like it was the end of the world. I’ve lost rolls of film before and usually I just get a little angry but not this emotional, I understand it happens when your working with film.
This time though I figure dealing with all this stress and trying to keep it together I just couldn’t do it anymore and this made me let it all out. My point is that even though I know I need to be strong it is ok to cry if things are rough, it actually made me feel better. Crying doesn’t solve anything but it does help relieve stress. So if your having a bad day or week or month, cry it out!